[	I feel	|	blah	]
[	What i'm listening to	|	Megalomaniac-Incubus	]

Good things about America:

• Were crazy enough to make it work.
• We can say wheather or not ppl *coughbushcough* suck or not
• Weve never lost a war
• The last time US soil was invaded was over 60 yrs ago
• We invented the TV
• We have the longest running sitcom (The Simpons)
• Theres a county in Georgia where its illeagal to NOT own a gun
• We, as a mere group of colonies, defeated a world power (England)
• Later, we saved that said world power twice and became a world power.
• We are self-dependent
• A food product can almost assassinate a president and get away with it
• We finished slavery
• We started a new form of government
• We became a world power when this country was only about 250 yrs old.
• We dont always start wars, but we sure as hell finish em.

Bad things about America:

• Bush
• Everyone hates us (Dont hate us, just hate our gov't)
• Bush's war
• Vietnam
• Bush
• Bush
• Need I say it again? lol

Random things about America:

• Only in America...can a pizza get to your house faster than an
  ambulance...
• Only in America...are there handicap parking places in front of
  a skating rink...
• Only in America...do people order double cheese burgers, a large
  fry, and a diet coke...
• Only in America...do banks leave both doors open and then chain
  the pens to the counters...
• Only in America...do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in
  the driveway and leave useless things and junk in boxes in the
  garage...
• Only in America...do we use answering machines to screen calls
  and then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone
  we didn't want to talk to in the first place...
• Only in America...do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns
  in packages of eight...
• Only in America...do we use the word "politics" to describe the
  process so well: "Poli" in latin meaning "many" and "tics"
  meaning "blood-sucking creatures"...

What a country we live in.

Grrrr.....

About a mounth 1/2 - 2 months ago i was playin paintball, and i was hiding behind this mini-bunker thing that me n yani set up. Yani was taking pot-shots to keep em from going around on his side. meanwhile, i couldnt 4 i am right-handed making me crappy at left handed shots (i was on the left of it)
All of a sudden, this goy comes out of nowhere from around the corner of the bunker n FRIGGIN SHOOTS MEH IN THE LEG!! TWAZ FROM ONLY 1 FOOT!!! the bruise is still there. Well, u cant really call it a bruise cuz it doesnt hurt, but its still PURPLE!!!!!

i hope i find him. theres this other kid FrOM THE SAME GAME that i reeealy want to....hurt. he said "Oh, i have an idea. How bout 12 of us fall back to higher area, but a place where we can still see u guys, and make it look like we retreated to the other flank?" Every1 thinks its a good idea, and the 12 ppl leave, leaving 4 ppl (Me, Yani, Bennie, and some other kid) behind a 5ft wide piece o plywood, and 2 ppl behind some trees 'supposed' to give cover fire. Well, the 12-15 ppl (more left than were supposed 2) that "fell back" WERE on the other bank. Bennies gun jammed again (HIS BRAND DOESNT JAM. EXPLAIN THAT TO ME.) and he left. The evil s.o.b. i mentioned b4 comes around the wall n shoots me n the leg (evil evil evil), and the guys behind us dont start shooting until me, the little kid n Yani (every1 left behind the bunker) and then they were shot out, the enemy crosses over (the field has a stream in the middle), takes the flag, goes bahhk the way they came, n wins the game.

Through out the rest of the game, i was shot 4 more times on that same leg BELOW THe KNEE. this 1 guy shot me right on the knee after i got out of the stream and it was not fun.

1) Wet clothes make shots hurt more

2) Paintballs have a nasty habit of not wanting to break on wet clothes

3) Paintballs that dont break hurt more

4) the dude was 10 ft away from me

5) His Co2 prob was cranked over 300 fps (290 fps (feet per sec.) is the field limit. that thing hit me going over160 MILES PER FUDGIN HOUR.

ANd yes, it did hurt. it felt like he broke mah knee cap. I had to HOP to the closest thing i could use 4 cover.

---BUT---

the fac thtat pbs dont break on wet clothes makes a good Chinese-style tactic to storm thier base. have every1 dunk thier entire body in the water. then we just 'bum-rush' ( run in a straight line, shooting whenever we have the chance) their base, but wed prob get shot like, 50 times a sec at close range, which would hurt very much. lol. I'd do it only if i saw like 20 other ppl doing it, and if i saw somewhere in the back of the group cuz i dont wanna get in some1s line of fire n get sshot very close in the bahk by one of my own guys *coughajcough*. lol

[	I feel	|	confused	]
[	What i'm listening to	|	"Ordinary" - Train	]

I havent posted nething for a while, so here i am, posting. yay for me lol.

Anyhoo...yeah. I think i finally like some1 again. Im not sure, but ive thought about her alot recently. I havent really talked 2 her b4, so i doubt she knos i xsist. By now, i believe 2 of u know who im talking about. I hav only talked to those 2 ppl about her, but now i think i like her. Im pretty sure that shed say no if i asked her tho, so its kind of a lost cause. Ive had alot of those, im sure u all kno about those. Anyhoo...yeah. Shes literally never on (ive only seen her on once, id guess 2 weeks ago), so i cant talk 2 her online, and it would be very awkward if i called her. Oh well, maybe ill see her at marys party, maybe not. I guess time will tell.

On a lighter note, i got a bit more of a tan at the pool 2day. I played pb last week, played some Ghost Recon and Super Smash Bros. Melee w/ AJ and Roy while they were over. and incase ur wondering, which i doubt, but still. i didnt hit anyone when i was playing pb (as expected). but i did a good job of pinning some1 down behind a waist-high bunker for a minute. But i didnt really have a fun time there. we (me, aj, roy) only played 4 games. i was shot in the first 1, called myself out in the second 1 b/c every1 else was dying and i knew id be overrun/shot 15 times in about 15 seconds. I want a different pb gun. Mine (The Spyder XTRA) is supposed 2 be the 4th BEST non-electric gun, while ajs is 7th-9th best, while his is now better than mine b/c of upgrades. Im thinkin of mebbe gettin a Tippmann A/5 or a Tippmann 98custom. Of course u dont really care cuz chances are, depending on who u r, uve never heard of these guns. so ill just stop this ranting about something uve never heard of and start ranting about something u HAVE heard of. Hmm.... lessee.......Oh, i thought of something. But, now i forget. hmmm..... *tries 2 remember*

Eh, i cant remember. ill just rant about random stuff that isnt all that significant, but it annoys me. ok? ok. lol. lesse...My watch's batteries are dying, so if i use the light-up-button-thing its really dim and it freezes the non-digital part, but the digital part still works. This song that i downloaded from this AOL thing, MusicNet@AOL, It sounds like someones snoreing in the background. My life plan is completely mesed up. I wanna be a soldier, but that puts me in the xact dangers our troops face every day, and that also cuts into having any kind of a relationship/family if im in 4 long enough. but my life revolves around several different points. i wont describe all of em, but i think the reason i havent liked ne1 for a while is b/c my life is just too damn complicated to balance liking some1 on top of everything else. Friends, Paintball, Trying to stay active so i dont get fat over summer, Pitifully attempting to be content with who i am. I have friends who much luckier than i am. Josh HW, for instance. I wish that i was a normal kid. Being able to live in the US my entire life, being able to hav life-long friends, etc. but no, my dad had 2 be in the CIA, yes, thats right, CIA. he just got into "overt" (declassified) and retired a few days ago. But because of his job, ive had 2 move from country to country every 2 or 3 years. it really sucks to hav to make new friends and then leave em just as u start 2 settle in and actually have a life. I remember, i didnt have ANY friends until i was 8 FUCKING YEARS OLD. everyone hated me. Just because was the "rich, white american kid that no1 wanted to even look at". i hated my life. wasnt until i was in 2nd gr. i actually had some friends.

Oh well, i G2G. not like anyones gonna hav read enough to get this far. i hate my life. i odnt blame the kids that hated me.